Unknown things and Unanswered Questions

It’s funny how little we really know, about life, love, the world, all of it. We don’t quite understand it and its not for lack of trying no not at all because we WANT to understand it we want to understand everything in face when we don’t understand something we get mad, and frustrated we don’t like the dark abyss that is the unknown. I am kind of different though I don’t want to know everything, I don’t what to know what life will bring me because I’m scared of knowing, if it’s bad then I won’t like it, if It’s good I would want to be surprised with it. To me knowing is the scary thing that is MY dark abyss that’s MY monster in the closet. I guess I don’t want to be rejected by someone I love, or have something bad happen to them I don’t want to lose the people in my life or I guess I don’t want to know that I’m going to lose them…that would just make it even harder for me to let people in then it already is because I know I that there is a chance of those things happening but it’s a chance and an “IF” so I don’t think about it I don’t like ifs I HATE ifs. But as of right now I don’t know for sure that I could have one of my close friends step out of my life and give up on me. I think that if I did know that information….hmmm….I don’t think I could live like that. I could handle it. I’m glad I don’t have to.

P.s. I love you

Unknown things and Unanswered Questions

It’s funny how little we really know, about life, love, the world, all of it. We don’t quite understand it and its not for lack of trying no not at all because we WANT to understand it we want to understand everything in face when we don’t understand something we get mad, and frustrated we don’t like the dark abyss that is the unknown. I am kind of different though I don’t want to know everything, I don’t what to know what life will bring me because I’m scared of knowing, if it’s bad then I won’t like it, if It’s good I would want to be surprised with it. To me knowing is the scary thing that is MY dark abyss that’s MY monster in the closet. I guess I don’t want to be rejected by someone I love, or have something bad happen to them I don’t want to lose the people in my life or I guess I don’t want to know that I’m going to lose them…that would just make it even harder for me to let people in then it already is because I know I that there is a chance of those things happening but it’s a chance and an “IF” so I don’t think about it I don’t like ifs I HATE ifs. But as of right now I don’t know for sure that I could have one of my close friends step out of my life and give up on me. I think that if I did know that information….hmmm….I don’t think I could live like that. I could handle it. I’m glad I don’t have to.

P.s. I love you

Time

Do you hear that…the ticking clock, That is the sound track to my life it’s a reminder of who I am, who I’ve been missing, where I’ve been, where I come from and where I want to go. Its always there to remind me of just those things, to remind me that its all real all of the feelings that I have everything it keeps my reality in check. I know to most people who read this I sound crazy but it’s the truth. Hearing that clock “tick tock tick tock” it always reminds me that it’s real that TIME is real. It helps me remember that no matter what kind of heartbreak or pain may come, there is going to be a time when I am happy again. Time is my Best friend and my worst enemy the more time that goes by the more people I gain in life but also the more I lose. Sometimes I feel like I dont have enough time, enough time to love someone or to get over someone,enough time for sadness,happiness, just not enough time but I suppose that we all feel that way at one point or another. But its the one thing in life that never really changes, we get older and older we will always change but not time, time passes it always will even after we are gone it still goes on, It’s a bitter sweetness that will never stop.

P.s. I Love You